I realized something last week...
Well, first off, I've started to get annoyed by comments on some of the ex-mormon forums I'm subscribed to. It's not that the people annoy me, in fact I generally can empathize with their anger and frustration, but it's the fact that even after you begin your exit from the organization, they still have a certain level of control over you.
Now granted the control is generally manifest in negative feelings towards the organization, but it's still just the fact that such feelings are still there, and almost necessary to help you get out.
But as I was thinking about it, I realized that I'm pretty much done. I just don't feel like I have to justify my unwillingness to believe their bullshit story. It is what it is, or rather it isn't what it is, or is what it isn't, but either way you want to look at it, I'm just not a part of it, nor do I feel any connection to it anymore.
To misquote the great Dewey Finn...
"Mormonism is just a funny little footnote on my epic ass!"
heh. good for you!
ReplyDeleteI have found my anger at church teachings and leaders is because there is still a part of me that believes it... or at least thinks I SHOULD believe it. I cannot wait for the day when I have shaken off the old beliefs enough that they no longer effect me.
ReplyDeleteI don't want to be an exmormon any more than I want to be a mormon, but I figure it's all part of the process.
I look forward to the day when I am where you are.
A footnote on the a$$? I'm getting a mental image of a tattoo in APA format. :)
ReplyDeleteI think for me the only way to get that part of my life gone is to move away where it isn't in your face all the time. Soon, yes, soon.
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